What is your One Thing?

First of all, to all of you who previously read GloKay’s Blog, welcome back.   To those of you who are new, please feel free to go purusing through some of my prior thoughts, musings, observations and rants. Hopefully they will entertain you.  I know I have been away for a long time, but I am very happy to finally have found my “voice” again.  I also want to send thanks out to a very dear friend, JJ Reich for some of the inspiration to go seeking my “voice” again.

I started this morning with a tweet asking “Stop & think back on this week. What was the 1 truly good thing you did for your business & the 1 truly good thing you did for yourself?”   I posed the question to others because it was one that I had asked myself just last night.  Too often we forget to stop and think about whether or not we are doing truly good things for our businesses and ourselves.  We get caught up in going through the motions and redundancies of life.  We don’t stop to consider whether those motions are forward movement or even productive stillness.

In looking back over my own week, I realized that the one truly good thing I did for my business was to stop and honestly evaluate my commitment.  I discovered in this self-reflection things that I did not really want to admit to myself.  Taking an honest look at my goals and dreams in comparision to the commitment demonstrated by my actions, or more accurately my inactions, was not one of the warm fuzzy moments of my week.  What it was, however, was liberating.  When I admitted these inadequacies to myself, I found the strength and re-dedication to move past this point and take steps forward.   With all of that said, I have to give a tremendous amount of credit to JJ for his post, “It’s the Pursuit of Our Goals That Shapes Our Lives“.  JJ’s willingess to be so open and honest with his own self-discovery and experiences started my own wheels spinning.  Thanks JJ.
As often happens when you open your mind and start examining yourself, you find other things that give you pause.  Out of this additional self-reflection, came the one good thing I have done for myself this week.  I gave my heart a good “cleaning out”.  Removing alot of dead weight, cleaning out cobwebs and making room for whatever possibilities decide to present themselves in my future.  This was a long overdue “not quite spring” sprucing up of the capability I have to empathize, sympathize, examine, care and, hopefully one day, love again.

So I enter the weekend and the week ahead with a new perspective, a new commitment and an open heart.  Who says spring is not here yet?

Time to do something new

As I sit here watching the minutes creep by, I am reminded of why I need something new in my life.  I like my job most of the time.  I’m pretty darn good at my job all of the time.  But there is that overwhelming feeling that I am destined to be doing something different.  More personal, grander, more fulfilling.  Not necessarily more exciting, but something that leaves me feeling gratified at the end of the day.  Something that makes me wake up each morning and feel that my destiny is in my own hands.  Something that gives me the freedom to put all of my amazing skills and talents to the fullest test, driving me to find the things in me that I did not know I had, pushing me to learn and grow each day (or at least most days).


 I’m to the point of dragging myself out of bed, mind wandering on the drive into work, sitting in my little stall in this cubicle farm and feeling like I have been shackled to this desk and chair until the clock finally strikes and it is time for me to leave.  Maybe I just need a change of scenery, but my heart tells me otherwise.  As comforting as the security of that bi-weekly paycheck and the benefits is, it has also become suffocating.  I’m scared.  There are so many other people who depend on my financial security (my kids, my stomach, my car finance company, Comcast, Peco, my landlord… LOL), but their dependence now weighs on me like an anchor around my neck pulling me down into the watery depths of boredom.  I am working on the courage, and the plan, to free myself, but there are so many things to consider to ensure that my children do not suffer for my need for room to breath.   I refuse to keep worrying about anyone or anything else.  That will work itself out.  It might mean, fewer cable channels, a smaller apartment, fewer new pairs of shoes, but those are minor sacrifices to spend each day feeling like it is my own.  Not feeling as if I owe that day and my energy to some corporate behemoth that has no recognition of my heart and soul’s desires.   But a feeling that the day and the energy I have put into it has made the world a better place, me a happier person and has put my soul at rest in the knowledge that I am giving of myself and to myself.


I watch with envy and admiration to my friends and acquaintances who have found the strength to work at jobs they love, whether it is for themselves or someone else.  There is a carefree attitude that they carry that I want to see in myself and to have others see in me.  Not to say they do not work hard, struggle and get frustrated.  I know that they do! I’ve been there to hold some their hands through some pretty rough times, but they have one shared knowledge that I do not these days.  They know that no matter how rough the times may be, they LOVE what they do.  Their passion and dedication are my touchstones, my holy grail that I am urgently seeking.  I am ready to strike out on my quest, my crusade.  What I need now is a plan (which I am this close to perfecting – watch for more on that in the coming days – things may surprise you!), the strength (which may come out of sheer desperation and boredom) and the support, advice and mentoring of some really talented people who understand this yearning.  I’m seeking volunteers!  I’m open to all advice, direction and moral support. 


I need to find that place in the world that is uniquely mine.  Wayne Dyer said (and forgive me Wayne for stealing your quote) “Doing what you love is the cornerstone of having abundance in your life.”  It is time for the abundance in my life.  Now I just need to find the place to do it, whether it is for me or someone else.  It has become an imperative that I find the abundance.


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