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Curve balls

So what do you do when life throws you several curve balls at one time.  The last several months have been one new pitch after another and all of them have been been right across the plate sliders and curves.  I'm to the point that I want to stop swinging and just strike out.   Don't ask me where the baseball analogies are coming from.  Especially since I am more of a football girl, but I think you get the idea. 
I'm getting dizzy trying to figure out which direction to look to keep things from falling on my head and knocking my knees out from underneath me. 
It has made me start to wonder about just how much emotional upheaval a person can take before they break. What determines that?  Is is in our DNA, our upbringing or just something else?  Can it be changed through sheer determination?  I wish I knew or that someone could tell me.  I live everyday with the realities of being bi-polar and have to wonder if that plays a role in just how much it would take to break me.  I do know what it feels like to break.  To feel that you are at the bottom of a very deep, dark hole and not to know how to climb out.  Does anyone else feel that way just before they know that they can't handle any more?
I've watched friends come through events and situations that would make some people shudder.  Yet, they seem to find their way through it with grace and dignity, never seeming to come close to cracking.  I envy them.
So how do we know just how much we can take until we get to a point that we can not take anymore?  It seems to be the only way to find out just where our breaking point is.  There has to be a better way.  Now how do I find it and can I juggle the balls that are being thrown at me in the meantime.  Or am I am going to get hit in the head with a fast ball?

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Why women primp

Why women primp -  an age old question that really seems to have no answer.  There is something innate in us that makes us want to look pretty, be attractive.  Although we may not admit it, we all do it.  That's why the cosmetic and beauty care industry is one of the largest in the world. 
Is it right or wrong?  There is no correct answer to that question.  I think that what is important is why we do it.  Waht are our motivations to have the perfect haircut, impeccable makeup, pedicures, manicures, waxing of all different types and at least a little bit of a tan?    This line of questions ran through my mind as my legs are being twisted into different positions to allow my waxer access.   Why do we do this?  I will admit, I am a primper.  I have my favorite salon/spa for the great haircut and color (thanks Meredith!), manicurist, pedicurist, esthetician for my facials and waxing.  My favorite cosmetics (MAC) and hair products (Dirt by Jonathan Antin).  I don't consider myself a fanatic and my bathroom is not overflowing, but I do enjoy feeling good because I look good. 
So what are my motivations?  Probably the same as any other woman.  We like other people to see us as attractive.  It allows us to present the image we have of ourselves, or more accurately the image we would like to have, to the rest of the world.  We do it for lovers and husbands.  Because we need to be the mom that looks the best on the soccer sidelines, because we think our appearance is a factor in our success in the workplace.  And for the best reason of all, to make ourselves feel good. 
So go ahead girls, there is nothing wrong with being a primper, as long we we are not expecting the results to change our lives and are not willing to go to extremes (read, bathroom full of products & cosmetics) hoping to create those changes.
I like that I can put on a little mascara and a smile and feel comfortable going out in public.  But, I also really like the way I feel when I pull out the hair product, take a little time to add the blush and eyeshadow to the mascara, when I am shaved, waxed, manicured and pedicured.  (There is something about looking down at pretty red toes that can just make you smile.)    Combine that with some pretty underwear or lingerie and
So, just for me, I will continue to do so.   My toes and nails will be painted, there will be at least mascara on my eyelashes, a little bit of glow to my skin, legs and underarms shaved and wax applied to parts of my body that only a special someone will ever get to see.   Add a big smile to all of that and it's a perfect package.

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